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RANDOMS OF

LIFE

Poetry & Random Thoughts

Strive to do want you love and you will succeed

Isbn978055755839-1

POETRY…

The ink is as vital to my life as breath to a human being saved is to allow the ink to ooze freely like blood from a vein flow forth the maniacal like the poetic freedom of Charlie Manson on to this paper lay down the methodical thoughts that breed each day evolve to a new levels, blossom like a butterfly freshly hatched from its cocoon then flip it to the gloom of the gothic details of limbs and entrails metastasize into infections adulations expressions of amour uplift and rejoice in one

of our most crucial art forms while enjoying a prodigious journey of the vernacular

~Butterfli~

^D^Y^N^AM^IC^D^UO

I look at you longingly from across the room

It’s been too long since we have met

The circumstances of life have kept us apart but like to dew to morning flowers the attraction is too strong, too necessary and brings us back together

I‟ve had other whimsical affairs but nothing like the love

affair we share

I‟ve shared tears with you, bared my soul to you

depended on you when all others seem to have forsaken me

^*sⁱ^gh*

^a^t^l^ong^l^as^t
t^h^e^uⁿⁱ^onⁱ^s^b^a^ck
on

I saunter across the room and position myself in front of you

Get comfortable take a sip of my wine

^It^f^eels^s^o^rⁱ^ght

Bad habits may be hard to break..good habits are unbreakable

^I^run
my^h^aⁿ^d^a^l^ong^y^our^sⁱ^d^e^f^ee^lⁱⁿ^g^t^h^a^t^c^om^f^ort^a^bl^e

feel once again

I wrap my hand around your length and find the best position to embrace you like I never want you to go

^Its^b^een^s^o^o^o^o^o^l^ong

And it still feels soooooo right

No turning back now

^D^e^s^tiⁿ^y^f^u^l^fⁱ^ll^ed

Stroke for stroke I match you marveling at the outcome

The dynamic duo back together again... Just me and my pen

^H^E^LL^O

The object of my innermost desires

If only he knew

Each day I rise with the hopes of catching only a glimpse of you

The feelings you stir within me are amazing

Indescribable

If only I were brave enough to express my thoughts to you

I am invisible In your eyes You notice me

^But^yet
g^l^a^re^t^h^rough^m^e

While I bore through you to the core of your soul Visualize all the goodness I can see within Imagine the perfect duo we could be

^I^envⁱ^sⁱ^on^my^s^e^l^fⁱⁿ^y^o^ur^a^r^m^s

Feeling safe and protected from all things

Comforted in my time of need

Loved always

I long to feel the gentle pressure of your lips on mine

Our bodies pressed against each others Gentle lovemaking followed by hours of cuddling I want to be your everything

The waterfall that flows into the abyss of your love

But alas

It isn't meant to be

We are just two strangers in the traffic of life

Constant contact; but no interaction

A lifetime to wonder about what could be

Regrets of not initiating the sequence that could have brought you to me

Then you said hello.....

^H^er^Sⁱ^d^e

*breathe*

Just leave then

Well maybe I should well I would if I could

No skills what am I to do for money? How to feed the kids?

Impossible situation. My mama won’t help. Shelter is full

* door closes* here we go again.

*breathe*

and stop

the tears are flowing again this time they taste sweet

I sit here on the cold bench answering their questions a blanket around me this time not for protection

Still tasting the tears. They taste like freedom.

I should have asked you why were u crying why didn’t

you leave.

^A^w^om^aⁿ^can^oⁿ^l^y
t^a^k^e^s^o
mu^ch^.

*breathe*

^T^h^erapy^Se^ssⁱ^on

alone in a realm of my own

cold dank and in an unfeeling mood

^I^‟^v^e^b^een^s^corⁿ^ed

^a^b^aⁿ^d^oned;^a^b^u^s^ed

I am not a phoenix and these will not be my ashes but I will rise

you violated my trust in the most ghastly of ways weeks

months years

^p^a^s^s^aⁿ^d
I^a^m^s^ti^l^lⁿ^ot^t^h^e^sa^me

still aggrieved

still a casualty of the loneliness known as solitary confinement

^{to the}^thoughts^fl^o^wiⁿ^g^f^ree^l^y^t^h^rough^my^mⁱⁿ^d

nightmares

an aversion to the light for the trepidation of losing mine candle blown

out

panic sets in diaphoretic state hyperventilation palpitations

the cold clammy feel of my body

^I^’^m^te^r^rⁱ^fⁱ^ed

but I won't shed a tear

^I^’^l^l^l^et^theⁱⁿ^k
c^r^y^f^or^me

^Sti^l^l^M^ourⁿⁱⁿ^g

My heart cries....

ⁱ^t
shou^l^dⁿ^'t^b^utⁱ^t^d^oes

they may as well have stolen my last breath my ink my thoughts all that is in me

how do I go on without you?

^{Is th}ⁱ^s
true^a^goⁿ^y

will this be all that is left of me shambles of my former self?

My pen bleeds because I am frozen...

I sit here and I ponder what my life is without your existence the wandering soul that I have become

^y^o^u^w^ere^my^oce^aⁿ^s^u^ns^et^m^y
per^f^ect^moment^my

^b^e^s^t

friend

what is my purpose now?

the paper cries because I have no more tears

the realization of no more chit chats before I go to bed no more surprise visits

nothing

an abyss of darkness

They say you would want me to prosper go forth and let my light shine

^I^sa^y^s^c^r^ew
them

^T^h^ey^kn^ew
y^o^u^oⁿ^a^s^u^r^f^a^ce^l^e^v^el

not realizing they could peel the layers back to find so much more

^lik^e^me~

Condolences are sent forget them

who are you that have been gone since 1986 all of a sudden appearing

expressing your desire to speak, your wants and needs be heard

^{go to}^h^ell

where were you when you were needed?

Now is not the time

^I^h^av^e^b^een^t^o^l^d
ti^m^e^h^e^a^l^s^a^l^l^w^ounds

an eternity could not repair the surface damage if I have to go that eternity without you

^N^o^t^A^l^one

Unexplained terror

Who knew four words could change your life

Give a life

Congratulations

You Are Pregnant Now what

In the midst of the confusion I forgot to ask

Darkness swallows me

I Am Alone

But I am not You are there Who are you?

^T^hi^s^wa^sⁿ^ot^s^upp^os^ed^t^o^b^e

9 months

Is it a countdown to an ending or a beginning? No one has any profound wisdom to bestow upon me Alone

But I am not

Fear engulfs every fiber of my being

What if

I had used protection Been on birth control Abstainedok..

^Too^l^a^te

What if

I am not ready

Too late

What if I am not a good parent?

There‟s time

My frustration manifest in the form of nightmares

Belly growing Always hungry' Tired

Scared

Alone

But I am not

The months peel off the calendar like layers off a scab

Will this be a new beginning? Or will the fear fester in me

^An^d
m^a^k^eⁱ^ts^wa^{y
to my}^u^nb^o^rⁿ^s^eed

Strong

Is what I need to be?

For both us

For I am not alone

^An^gels^D^aⁿ^cⁱⁿ^g^wⁱ^th^t^h^e
Serpents^f^e^a^turⁱⁿ^g^D^a^Ch^a^mp

*CHAMP*

Perfecting my swordplay, preparing for the epic battle that is coming, I am Psychosis.

Immortal emeritus of the myths you choose to say are not real. The mirror mirror of illusions to eradicate the confusion

^th^a^t
you^f^eel^B^l^o^od^y^M^a^ryⁱ^s^aⁿ^o^l^d^wⁱ^s^e^t^a^l^e.^T^h^e^s^erpeⁿ^t

is in your circumference. The exterminator per say I offer peace in your realm, but your faiths and disorderly conduct

keeps me in business, when you pray so hard to stay away

your rules of seven deadly sins are a few short when there are so

many ways to take your last breath and force you to become

^one^of^me.^T^h^e^An^gels^a^re^w^e^a^k^eⁿ^ed^b^y
e^v^ery^c^h^e^s^s^lik^e

move

I make, but it is the humans that give me so much to work with

^T^h^e^wa^rⁱ^s^j^u^s^t^b^egun^f^o^rⁱⁿ^R^e^v^ela^tⁱ^ons
the^f^a^c^t^s
remain

that

my brethren (The Four Horsemen ) will appear to challenge and dispute your choices

of life. I take it your God will become angry and allow me to do my job.

^B^rin^g^on^y^o^ur^An^g^e^l^;^t^hi^s^d^emonⁱ^s^rea^d^y^f^or^wa^r!

*Butterfli*

While he dances in the moonlight I slither in through the shadows

the seductive succubus

^h^ell^b^ent^on^d^e^s^tructⁱ^on^th^r^oughⁱⁿ^ter^r^uption
of^me^r^e

mortals thoughts.

the unreal is now real-whom shall you fear called forth by the forlorn, weak, and the scared to see what havoc they beseech

you came forth and try to call out for his mercy but like lithium I flow through their blood and take control of their brain .

Your God has abandoned you like an unwanted child feeling forsaken?

^y^o^ur^s^oul^wⁱ^l^l^b^e^myⁱ^m^mort^a^l^j^e^w^el,^.my^p^rⁱ^z^eⁱⁿ^thⁱ^s

war

bring your crestfallen and impoverished to feed the flames

your world will burn like the depths of Hades

your angels will fail you crossing over into the nether region

^t^h^e^endⁱ^sⁿⁱ^gh

*CHAMP*

Merciless architect with evil intent to desecrate with utter glee for the plasma

^fl^o^wⁱⁿ^gⁱ^n
y^o^ur^v^eiⁿ^s^.^R^e^s^tituti^oⁿ^f^or^Ba^b^yl^oⁿ^‟^s^sⁱⁿ^sⁱ^s

why I shall never perish.

^An^g^l^es^h^av^e^orders
of^p^r^o^t^ectⁱ^on^w^hil^e^w^e^car^v^e^out

masterpieces of mayhem.

The evolution of time has allowed up

^{to tr}^aⁿ^s^f^ormⁱⁿ^to^y^o^u^s^eeiⁿ^g^us^a^s
Y^O^U.^O^u^r
reⁱ^gnⁱ^s

capitalism of your

monetary system. We destroy from within your hallowed walls of cathedrals as

your priest. Rape of young men to exploit your faith.

Don't look at me that way.

Read your papers to see if Allah or Sister Helen cannot be exploited from

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