Drink the Rain
Copyright © 2007, 2011 Greenroom Books
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Chapter 1
Camp Global Training Headquarters, east Texas
Monday
Christina Brannigan wiped the back of one hand across her forehead while reaching for her water bottle with the other. Her hand shook as she lifted the warm water to her cracked lips. Pressing a trembling arm against her filthy shirt, she glanced at her wrist. The face of her watch was coated in a layer of the red Texas soil that stained her clothes and clung heavily to the sweat and sunscreen that caked her skin.
Dinner should have begun ten minutes ago. She looked hopefully toward Paige, the sassy, auburn-haired drama instructor for signs of dismissal, but saw only a hardened frown of determination in her gaze.
“Come on, places, people, look alive!” Paige’s voice had an edge of urgency and insistence as she clapped her hands and pointed stragglers to appropriate places on the dusty field. She punched a button on her portable CD player. Christina cringed. One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, and one….the even tempo of the eight count resumed its merciless control.
Not that it had ever really relinquished its iron-fisted grip. For the past three days, every movement in Christina’s life had become choreographed to the numbers that steadily vibrated the dry, brittle field with their cadence. When she walked, she fell into step with it. When she actually had time to eat, she chewed her food to it. Earlier that morning, she had even caught herself folding her towel to the same rhythm that lulled her to sleep and invaded her dreams.
Even as she mindlessly executed the dips and pivots required by the droning eight count, Christina looked longingly toward the big top tent about 500 yards to her left. Students from Team Brazil were filing into the tent, each grabbing a dull pink cafeteria tray from a tall stack at the end of the row of serving tables. Smiling volunteers were filling the geometric indentations of each tray with what would, based on past experience, undoubtedly prove to be some sort of hot goop.
It wasn’t the hot goop or a lukewarm water refill that made Christina so eager for a break. The fact was that she just wanted a chance to sit down. If her coordination hadn’t improved in the past three and a half hours of practice, missing the dinner break wasn’t likely to do the trick either. Christina had already learned that missed breaks were not made up, but simply sacrificed to the never ending demands of a schedule tighter than the canvas sneakers she’d been issued at orientation.
Exasperated, Paige thumped a finger on the CD player and killed the eight count. “Listen, people, this is it.” Her voice carried such authority that it was impossible not to feel as though she were giving orders in a life or death military campaign. “We’re going through this one more time with the help of the numbers. If you don’t have the rhythm by now, we’re doomed. You have to be able to count these steps out in your head.” Paige began clapping out the rhythm. Christina could feel her own palms begin to sweat. It was impossible for her to step on the right number even with the help of the soundtrack.
“…the last time you’ll hear the numbers,” Paige continued, tucking a damp curl behind her ear and placing her hands on her hips. “After dinner, we’re running through the entire block of skits and we’ll keep at it until we nail them.” She paused, meaningfully. “No matter how long it takes.” She turned around and thumped her index finger on the play button. The speakers came back to life, belting out marching orders.
Squat on four, pivot on five, step on six, turn on seven, rest on eight. How hard could it be? If Christina’s sore muscles and flushed face were any indication, it was about as hard as climbing Mt. Kilimanjaro with both hands tied behind her back. Most of the other team members seemed to be catching on, but for Christina, it seemed the harder she worked, the more complicated the movements became.
There was no way anyone could have prepared her for the intensity of Texas heat in mid-June. When she’d pushed through the glass doors of the airport last Friday, she’d been practically bowled over by the heavy, humid air. It reminded her of the time her face got too close to the industrial ovens during a Home Ec. baking exercise. The blast in the face sounded an alarm—go back, you’re too close to danger!
Later events proved the heat to be the least of her worries, although she now knew she should have heeded its warning. Each passing moment at Camp Global Headquarters continued to assure her just how woefully misguided she’d been about what she had gotten herself into. Three days ago, Christina had been expecting to spend several days in air-conditioned classrooms rehearsing the lines of humorous scripts and learning useful phrases in some exotic tribal dialect before boarding a plane for a summer of adventure in South Africa.
What she didn’t know was that the drama they’d be taking to Africa was a tightly choreographed routine. Of course, last fall’s Riverside High School production of Guys and Dolls had already spotlighted Christina’s talent deficit in the choreography department. She also hadn’t realized that Camp Global performed only street drama. Enter the fact that they didn’t even have air-conditioned classrooms, and that pretty much summed up the surprises Christina discovered on page one of the inch-thick binder she’d been tossed as she climbed aboard the camo-splattered Camp Global bus outside the airport.
If the heat and the drama weren’t shocking enough, even worse was the realization about the assignment itself. The way she had understood things, she had signed up to travel with a team of college students to perform and teach drama at a brand new South African camp. What she had not fully grasped was that they were being sent to actually build the camp. Hammer and nails type stuff. The drama would only be part of a schedule that she now suspected would be full of twists she couldn’t begin to anticipate while fumbling through the tricky footwork of the squat/pivot combination.
The accumulation of these unexpected surprises left her feeling as though she were in a bad episode of reality TV—without the huge cash payoff, and no chance of being voted out.
She could feel her pulse hammering at her temples as she took her place on the field. Even her headache seemed in sync with the eight count. What would they say back at Riverside High if she dropped dead from synchronized heat stroke?
Back turned to an imaginary audience of small, black faces, she blinked back tears as she acknowledged the truth: she simply did not posses the coordination necessary to pull off her part in either the Soap Stomp or the Mighty Mouth March.
Conceptually, she had to admit that the idea behind the drama was pretty cool. It was a set of choreographed scenes depicting basic health and hygiene information, set to a musical soundtrack narrated in the native language of whatever region—in this case the Kwa Zulu Natal province of South Africa—that Camp Global was headed.
It had never occurred to her that there were children anywhere in the world who didn’t know how to shower, brush, or floss, but apparently whether or not some children did was at least partially dependent on Christina’s ability to pivot smoothly and step on count.
Christina heard the music swell and took her cue to begin counting. Her lips moved slightly and her eyes closed as she turned on one, two, three step, step. So far so good, four, squat (crunch, a painless but annoying reminder of last summer’s knee injury), and stand (ouch—sore quadriceps) five, pivot (regain balance), step on six and—open eyes.
Bam! The eight count abruptly stopped halfway through seven. All eyes stared in one direction—at Christina. She looked around. Sadly, she had not spun out with the other white-capped members of the parade of pearly whites. Horrified, she realized she had whirled into the clutches of the tooth decay squad hugging their knees awaiting their cue to spin into their march of mass destruction.
She swallowed hard. She’d turned out on the wrong cue, a fact that Paige did not seem to be handling well. She gave an exasperated wave in the direction of the big top tent. “Go, get some dinner. Be back at 6:30 sharp. Christina, get some food and fluid, please. You look like you’re about to collapse. I want you back here at 6:25.”
Christina shoved slimy bits through the slippery sauce on her dinner tray. She was relatively certain she must be hungry, but borderline heat exhaustion had a way of masking the body’s normal sensations.
Why had Paige asked her to come back before everyone else? She suspected it had something to do with her dismal drama performance or the confusion about her funding. Neither were pleasant subjects, but right now it was hard to say which was worse. Technically, either could be cause for dismissal.
She walked over to the flatbed trailer where the water drum was propped. She refilled the bottle and downed half of it before she made it back to her table. The water sloshed as her shaking hand deposited the container on the rough, wooden surface. She felt dizzy, queasy, and suffocated by the hot, heavy air.
Although this wasn’t the first time she chose a summer of adventure over burger flipping and mall crawling, she wished she had a clue just how much of an adventure she had gotten herself into.
Christina had spent the previous summer working for her Aunt Meg and Uncle Michael at the camp they ran for disadvantaged children. So much had happened there that it seemed as though she could describe her life in terms of before camp and after camp.
Before camp, it seemed to her that her life was one long wish list. Outside of academics, there was little she could really claim in life. She wanted a part in the school play; what she got was a bloody nose at auditions. She wanted to be thin—and noticed by popular guys like Kevin Witherspoon; what she got was fifteen pounds heavier working with the Home Ec. teacher on a disaster that came to be known as The Donut Project. She wanted a date for the prom, but not with chess team captain Bernard Flood—the only guy who asked.
The facts seemed to speak for themselves. She simply was not meant to have the life she wanted. She was destined to live behind the scenes, in the shadows of others fortunate enough to actually live out the dreams she wanted for herself.
The dismal events of her junior year had left her unprepared for the adventures that Camp Edson brought into her life. She found herself responsible for more than she could have ever bargained for—in fact, there was a twelve-year-old girl in New York right now who owed her life, in more ways than one, to Christina’s good judgment and quick thinking.
As incredible as her experiences as a counselor had been, the biggest surprise of last summer had been Mark. If anything disqualified Mark from being the most perfect guy alive, she didn’t know about it. Not only was he good looking, sensitive, and intelligent, he was thoroughly in love with her. At least, she thought he had been.
Where things had stood between her and Mark last fall seemed unclear. Ask most people who had any knowledge of the previous summer’s events—Stacey, Suzy, and as later events so vividly proved, even Mark himself, and the facts clearly seemed to indicate that Christina had abruptly and inexplicably ended things with him.
In reality, her feelings for Mark had only intensified when she left Camp Edson last August. Had it really been almost a year? The truth was hidden within a secret that none of her friends, especially Mark, could ever know.
The summer had ended with a decision. It was a decision that had altered the course of both their lives, and, unavoidably, their relationship. Going to Africa was a big part of that decision, and it impacted both of their futures in ways that Mark would never know and even she couldn’t predict. It had cost her—not to mention her aunt and uncle—a fortune that none of them could really afford; it had mystified Stacey and bewildered Kevin, and even if the sun shriveled her into a raisin and her muscles and bones collapsed from exertion, it was preferable to quitting now. Besides, what could she really say? “It was hot, and the drama was difficult” hardly seemed like an option.
She would go back to the dusty field and conquer the drama. She would endure the heat of mid-summer Texas. Wednesday morning at 3 A.M. she would board the plane and head for Africa. She would pound nails and saw lumber. Most of all, she would squat on four, pivot on five, and step on six.
Sitting here on the edge of a splintered bench, she was 48 hours from realizing a dream that had taken every second of her time and every ounce of her determination. Her senior year had been the most difficult of her entire life, and she suddenly found herself reliving it all in a mental power-point slide show. The memories of what it had taken to bring her here, now, on the brink of living the dream made her certain that there was no other choice.
Unless, of course, there was any truth to this morning’s report that her account was $330 short.
Chapter 2
New York, last school year
September
Stacey cranked the CD player up another notch as she closed her eyes, visualizing the movements that Elle, the choreographer, had demonstrated earlier that evening. Her attempts at duplicating the routine were disgustingly successful, Christina noticed with a smile. Casting Stacey as a Hot Box girl in the Riverside High Production of Guys and Dolls was a natural choice. Her movements were smooth, and she picked up even the most complicated steps almost instantly—a fact that may have made Christina jealous in the past, but didn’t matter in the least as she sifted through the boxes of photos and books that were strewn across center stage.
“Here we go,” Kevin said with a triumphant smile as he held a dog-eared photo toward the strip of overhead stage lights, giving it a final examination. “This one’s mine.”
Christina gave a non-committal shrug, her default response to all things Kevin Witherspoon.
Kevin began sorting through the pre-cut strips of plywood propped up on stage left, searching for the perfect piece to recreate whatever street sign had caught his eye in the fifties-era photos of New York City they’d been sifting through for the past hour. Mr. Earle, the history teacher, and Ms. White, the librarian, as well as several interested grandmothers had loaned snapshots, books, and memorabilia to the stage crew to help with set design.
Christina had spent every one of the previous three years she’d been in drama club on the stage crew. Even though she’d landed a leading role in Guys and Dolls after last week’s audition –a fact she’d confirmed by repeated readings of the cast list still posted on the auditorium door—she found that she still felt the need to be a part of the stage crew. Designing the bits and pieces that miraculously combined to create a new, onstage world in a drama all their own had somehow become part of her. She found it impossible to separate herself from the process.
Christina glanced toward Kevin out of the corner of her eye. He was prying the lids off several cans of paint and had already penciled in the block lettering for the single word “TONITE” surrounded by a series of circles that Christina assumed would materialize into neon lights under Kevin’s highly skilled brush strokes. Christina suppressed a sigh. Kevin’s sudden interest in the dramatic arts was irritating. Like any other football player, he’d passed through the auditorium doors for the sole purpose of school assemblies—until late last week when he’d become a permanent fixture in every aspect of the upcoming production.
Looking back, Kevin’s sudden decision to join the stage crew was almost predictable. In recent weeks, he’d proven quite capable of worming his way into Christina’s life in more ways than she ever would have dreamed possible. Besides, any Riverside High student who was able to hold a paintbrush and was willing to show up was not only eligible, but encouraged to join stage crew.
How Kevin had managed to land a leading role, however, was nothing short of school politics in action. It was a simple fact: put popular Kevin Witherspoon on stage doing anything, and ticket sales would follow. Put Kevin Witherspoon on stage as a 1950s gangster in a sizzling story line, and plan on a full house. If not entirely fair, it certainly made perfect sense to Mr. Lopez, the new drama instructor who was under pressure to deliver a successful show lest the Riverside High drama club fall victim to the next round of school board budget cuts.
“What do you mean, you’re tired?” Stacey’s voice had a whiney edge. “Come on, Christina, it’ll be fun.” Slowly examining the sequined dance costumes on the long rack in the dressing room, she pulled out a shiny green and gold leotard and held it in front of her as she stared into a full-length oval mirror.
Stacey’s “party girl” personality had been a turn-off to Christina when the girls first met at Camp Edson the previous summer. The fact that they eventually became friends was nearly as surprising as the job transfer that brought Stacey’s family to Riverside that fall. Christina was finding that Stacey’s immediate slide into Riverside High’s popular crowd, which now somehow included a remake of the former chess club captain Bernard—now known as Dave or “Flash”—Flood, combined with Kevin’s sudden interest, often left her confused and uncertain where she fit in.
“You’re just nervous about rehearsing ‘the scene’ tomorrow,” Stacey teased.
Christina sat down at a vanity across the room. “No, I’m a professional, I can handle it,” she said jokingly, in the cool tones of an afflicted celebrity.
“Don’t you realize that you’re the envy of every girl in this school?” Stacey continued. “I heard Debbie Dennison and Angie Farringer talking about it this afternoon. ‘Does she really get to kiss him?’ Debbie asked, and then Angie said that she heard it from Kevin himself. I mean the fact that he’s talking about it…” Stacey’s voice trailed as she hung the costume back on the rack and perched on top of the vanity.
She crossed her legs and picked up a compact and make up brush, and, flipping the top of the compact she carefully examined her face before dipping the brush into one of the several dozen jars scattered across the top of the vanity. She lifted the brush and blew the excess powder away from Christina before sweeping it across her cheeks. “I just don’t get it, Christina. Kevin has been so sweet. Without the least bit of encouragement, he’s followed you around like a puppy dog since the first day of school. He sat in detention for you, Christina, an entire week of detention, and shall we address why?”
“No, no, let’s not.”
“Detention, Christina, was Kevin’s reward for his loyal service.”
Christina groaned. “I never asked him to carry my books.”
“Which makes his sacrifice all the more noble,” Stacey continued matter-of-factly, ignoring the pain in Christina’s voice. “Seventeen tardy slips and a month of carrying your backpack to every one of your classes—”
“All right, all right, I’ll go! Enough!” Christina really did feel awful about Kevin’s detention. It was the one thing that actually made her have second thoughts about the possibility of ever dating him. It had only been three days since Christina had abandoned the knee brace and crutches that had been slowing her down since an accident at Camp Edson. Kevin had miraculously appeared at Christina’s side at the end of each of her classes. He’d swing her backpack over his shoulder and match her ridiculously slow place, telling jokes until she couldn’t keep from laughing. Christina was ashamed to admit that the thought of Kevin being late for his own classes had never occurred to her.
Before the recent restructuring of the Riverside High social scene, Kevin and his gang had hung out at Rocko’s, a hole-in-the-wall pizza joint whose owner had been rumored to serve alcohol to minors after closing. Supposedly, he’d avoided facing charges because his brother-in-law held some sort of important political office. It was all hearsay, and Christina wouldn’t know from personal experience. The drama club had their own longstanding tradition of hanging out in The Greenroom after practices.
The Greenroom was a coffeehouse just outside the campus of the Riverside Community College. Its staff, management, and customers were mostly college students—the artsy ones who were into edgy, abstract paintings and readings of dark and often melodramatic poetry. Bistro tables were interspersed among overstuffed couches and armchairs. Original photographs and artwork covered nearly every square inch of wall space, and easels were propped in several corners and nooks where students spent lazy afternoons and late evening hours painting, surrounded by the wafting aroma of cappuccinos, lattes, and the chocolate muffins for which the café was locally known.
An artificial redhead in a black leather jacket was reading poetry to an audience of six or seven co-eds—two couples and a few single girls who were giving the poet at least as much attention as the textbooks strewn across two round tables. Kevin, Dave, and Rick, a burly Riverside linebacker, noisily headed toward the back of the café, hands jammed into their letter jackets. As cool as they thought they were, Christina thought they’d be less conspicuous if they just wore signs that said “we don’t belong here.”
Rick stopped to stare at a painting on the wall opposite their table before sitting down. His cheeks puffed out, and for a moment, she thought he was going to hurl. Instead, all he spewed was laughter. “This place is whacked. Let’s go to Rocko’s, man.”
Kevin gave him a playful nudge. “Come on, sit down. I have to hang in places like this now that I’m a dramatic artist.” Kevin slid into a chair next to the wall. He leaned back, balancing the chair on its rear legs. Rick reluctantly took a seat, and began pulling sugar packets from the dish in the center of the table.
Dave slid an arm around Stacey, asking her what she wanted from the counter. Christina watched as he returned a moment later, balancing two steamy mugs of hot cocoa and an oversized chocolate muffin. He handed Stacey her cocoa and straddled the chair beside her. Although Christina detected faint undertones of carefully enunciated geek-speak in his otherwise smooth banter, she had to admit that minus the glasses, acne, and textbooks, his physical transformation was complete.
In every way visually detectable, Dave appeared to be a carbon copy of his friends. In spite of Christina’s best attempts at explanation, Stacey, still in her first month at Riverside High, was oblivious to any other Dave than the ultra-cool football player she clutched like a trophy. She knew that his volunteer work as a summer tutor had saved Kevin’s GPA and sports eligibility. It also made him a convenient sub when a bet with Kevin landed him on the football field the day after an injury sidelined the team’s usual receiver. Flood’s lightning speed gave him first-string status on and off the field. Stacey was vaguely aware that Christina had previously found him repulsive, but chalked it up to some form of hallucination. It was either that, or accept the fact that the pimpled, gawky guy in the yearbook picture beside the name Bernard Flood was actually her Dave.
While the Bernard Flood concept was completely foreign to Stacey, it was actually Dave “Flash” Flood who was a stranger to Christina. Sure, she’d turned his prom invitation down cold, but she had to admit that there’d been something genuine about awkward Bernard that was completely absent in Dave of mass-market appeal.
It was a thought that made her uncomfortable. After all, Bernard David Flood wasn’t the only one who had gone through a summer of transformation. When she rejoined the student body three weeks ago, her own was fifteen pounds lighter and her hair four inches longer than it had been last spring. She would like to have thought that it was more than physical change responsible for the fact that she and Bernard/Dave were here with Kevin Witherspoon and company, but she wasn’t that naive.
Rick had emptied the sugar packets and folded them into triangles that he was flicking across the table toward Dave. The projectiles skidded through the mound of their former contents, scattering granules across the table at regular intervals.
Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Kevin’s hand approaching hers, so she quickly took a careful sip of her steaming latte and sneaked a look at her watch. She set her drink back on the table, leaving her hand around the mug to preempt any further advances.
“Are you cold?” Kevin asked.
“Hmmm?” She pretended not to hear, buying herself the second she needed to wrap her other hand convincingly around the warm mug before she had to answer.
Kevin nodded toward her hands, now firmly wrapped around her steaming beverage. “Cold?” he asked again.
Christina shrugged. “A little.”
Kevin began pulling at the sleeve of his letterman jacket, tipping further back in his chair to give himself room to pull it off.
She shook her head as she took a final sip of her drink. “Oh, thanks, Kevin, but I need to head home. It’s a school night.”
She opened her laptop and was surprised by her impatience as she typed in her password and waited for her e-mail to load. She braced herself for the letdown of the in box full of spam she had come to expect in the past week since she’d made her first virtual appearance into Mark’s new world.
She almost forgot to breathe as her e-mail loaded. Discount pharmaceuticals, African heirs requiring help with bank transfers, cut-rate mortgages: the spam scrolled across the screen until a headline caught her eye. “Fresh Start,” she read, clamping her hand over her mouth to keep from shouting. Something new from Mark, some tangible connection to him—and such an encouraging subject header!
To: ChristinaB@backstageyouth.com
Subject: Fresh Start
Christina,
I honestly didn’t know which would be more painful: hearing from you or not. It’s a question I have spent all week trying to resolve, because it is crucial to my ability to make a fresh start here.
The thing I think I’ve struggled with the most is that right now, I’m supposedly living my dream. You, of all people, know how much I wanted this...
The screen melted away in the flood of Christina’s tears as she choked back a sob. You have no idea. How could he possibly be expected to know that it was the check for her summer of work at Camp Edson that financed the part of his tuition that he couldn’t cover? He’d never have accepted it. As far as Mark knew, Christina blew her earnings on a new wardrobe to fit her slimmer figure. He had no way of knowing that, at this exact moment, she was wearing a pair of Stacey’s rejected jeans and a top from a box of closet overflow that Aunt Meg had sent home from camp with her. She wiped her eyes, blew her nose, and returned to the screen.
That last day, after I got the call from Tyler U about my financial aid coming through, you told me to go and live my dreams. It’s funny how dreams can change. It’s sad when the cost of getting where you wanted to go robs the satisfaction of arriving.
No matter what your reasons were, the fact remains that we can’t be together right now. You’re there, preparing to spend the summer 9,000 miles away...
I’m left with no choice but to dust myself off and do what you told me to do—play this thing out and see where it takes me.
So, Christina, for now I think it would hurt more not to hear that it was worth it. Please, tell me it was worth it. Tell me you’re having the time of your life, because, for your happiness, I’d pay any price.
Mark
Christina buried her face in her hands and cried so hard her shoulders shook. Was it worth it? It was a question she couldn’t answer yet. And, in many ways, that was the point.
The relationship was perfect in every way but one: neither of them were ready to spend their future together. It was true that if she had made other choices they could both be enrolled at the same community college right now, living at Camp Edson and working off-season retreats on the weekends.
Mark claimed to be willing to give up four years of normal university life to limp through community college class by class with the proceeds of odd jobs just so they could be together, but how could he choose her over something he was never able to experience?
For Christina, using the College Credit Scholarship for Exceptional Seniors she unexpectedly received in August to attend the oh-so-small community college upstate with Mark would have meant no drama classes, and no drama credit meant no drama trip and no African adventure. At seventeen, how could Christina possibly know if staying with Mark would be more fulfilling than drama in Africa?
There was too much for them both to explore on their own before they could think seriously about a future together. For now, it seemed that Mark was the right guy at the wrong time.
Subject: RE: Fresh Start
Mark,
Wow, getting your message was an emotional roller coaster. I was so glad to hear from you, but...you are right, Mark, we can’t be together right now. And, believe it or not, I am as sad about it as you are. I can’t expect you to completely understand my decision for us to go our separate ways for now, but just look at it as a chance for you to thoroughly explore all your options in life. That is what I need to do now, and I think it would be good for you, too. Don’t you think if we’re really supposed to be together, it’ll happen in the end?
Well, it’s too soon to tell you if my decision was “worth it.” I can tell you that my drama has been keeping me very busy! I can’t even believe I’m in the play. Auditions were a disaster—we’re doing Guys and Dolls and it’s all tightly choreographed—you know how well I do with coordination skills, LOL! I showed up at auditions and saw the cute little routines that everyone else was doing, and I pretty much figured the senior play was out for me. Stacey totally played it off like she’d prepared, but actually she just pulled out some cheerleading routine from her old school, and everyone was all impressed.
Anyway, I decided not to even embarrass myself by going through the motions of auditioning. Aside from having no coordination, I never really thought of myself as someone who could sing, either. Before the Bye Bye Birdie auditions last year, my best friend Joanie said I should try out for Rosie (the lead—lots of singing), but I thought she was just trying to be encouraging.
I was backstage sorting through the costumes, pulling out anything that could remotely be from the 1950s (that’s the time period for Guys and Dolls) and I guess I was just singing some of the songs out loud without even realizing it. Mr. Lopez asked me when I was going to come over to the piano and audition for him! So, I did! It was really awesome. Mr. Lopez chose me for the lead even after I told him I can’t even walk and chew gum. He said he’d have the choreographer rewrite my scenes because (this is the best part) having my voice was worth any revisions to the choreography!
I’m sorry this is so long. Now it’s your turn—tell me what’s going on in your life.
Christina
She closed her eyes and sighed as she hit the send key. Still staring at the computer screen, she absently reached out with her left hand to pet her chocolate Lab, Mocha. Sensing her distress, he’d been sitting loyally beside her. Instead of soft fur, however, her flailing hand contacted nothing but air.
Frowning, she turned around to see Mocha stationed in front of the window. The hairs on his back stood on end and he was growling. She heard the branches of the oak tree outside her window scraping against the house. It was an unmistakable sound, one that wouldn’t have bothered her in the least if a storm were raging outside. She crouched, cautiously making her way to the other window that faced the front of the house, and lifted the blind about an inch. She could just make out the flowered flag her mom hung near the front door. It was completely still.
She sank down into her blue shag carpet, where she lay, motionless, eyes and ears focused on the window. A branch creaked loudly, and she heard a rustling of dry leaves followed by complete silence, and then a shrill ring of the phone.
Chapter 3
Christina hadn’t realized she’d been holding her breath until she was forced to exhale when she tentatively answered the phone.
“Hello?” Her voice was barely above a whisper.
“Hey, Christina, it’s Kevin—”
“Kevin, it’s not such a good time right now, there’s something outside my—”
“Yeah, I know. Why are you whispering?”
“What do you mean, ‘I know?’ ” Christina demanded, her voice rising.
“Yeah, it’s me. Let me in, would ya?”
“What!”
Kevin sighed. “Go to your window and lift the shade.”
“You’re insane!”
“Come on, Christina. I have something you’re going to need before bed.”
“Listen, Kevin, this is all very interesting—”
“Christina, I have your script. You left it at The Greenroom.”
“Thanks, can you just put it in my mailbox?”
“Christina—”
“Hold on a second.” She crossed the room and held the phone in the vicinity of Mocha’s snout. He gave a deep, throaty growl. Christina pulled the phone back to her own ear.
“What’s that, your blow dryer?” Kevin asked.
“No, it’s my chocolate Lab. He doesn’t like creepy guys with cell phones hanging outside the window. My dad doesn’t, either.”
“Ouch!”
“Are you hurt physically or emotionally?”
“You wouldn’t have to ask if you’d just come to the window. Come on, practice a scene with me.”
“OK, I’m game. Let’s run through scene two. I know it by heart.”
She heard the rustle of pages. “OK, I’ve got it,” Kevin said eagerly. After a brief pause, his tone sank. “Wait a minute, hey, I don’t like this scene. Are you sure it’s scene two that you want?”
“Yes. It’s the one where my character, the innocent and virtuous Sarah Brown, tells your character, the seedy Sky Masterson, in no uncertain terms that he’s not her type.”
“No, no, Christina, the scene I want to do is much more fun. Here it is, scene eight.”
“Yes, I know it well. It’s the scene where your character manages to convince my character to accompany him on a fly-by-night trip—”
“Yes, yes, that’s it!” Kevin encouraged. “There’s dancing, and singing, and well, you know how it turns out…”
“Yeah, she finds out later that the whole trip was a sham, a set up, he took her out on a bet!”
“No, no, before that! There’s, well, this part here, about center of page 18…”
“Oh! You mean that little peck on the cheek? Really, Kevin, are you sure you need to practice that? I kind of thought you were a little more, well, experienced than that.”
“Peck on the cheek? No way, baby, what I’m reading here calls for a full-fledged lip-lock!”
“‘Full-fledged lip-lock?’” Really, I must have missed that notation. I’ll check it out in the morning.”
“Christina?”
“Yeah?”
“Will you go out with me on Friday night?”
“No, Kevin, I have play practice.” She heard him shuffling through his papers again.
“No, there’s no rehearsal on Friday.” Kevin seemed pleased to squelch her objection so quickly.
“At RCC. I’m stage crew for You Can’t Take it With You.”
“Oh.” Kevin’s voice fell flat. “Isn’t that pretty difficult to keep up with?”
“Nearly impossible with rehearsals for Guys and Dolls.”
“Why don’t you drop?”
“Kevin, being on stage crew is required for one of the classes I’m enrolled in. You don’t just ‘drop.’ Especially because I need six college credits to go to Africa this summer.”
“It just seems to me that taking college credits your senior year and exotic global tours—well, you’re going to miss out on a lot.”
Snap. She tossed the closed phone across the room. Whap! The blind shot up so fast that Kevin teetered precariously on his perch. She heaved the window open with equal force.
“What are you trying to say, Kevin Witherspoon? I am the first Riverside High student ever to be selected to take fully funded college credits my senior year. Those credits allow me to study drama, which, unlike some people, I’m involved in because it’s what I want to do with my life. I’ll be doing what I love the most in Africa this summer while I’m missing out on what?” she demanded.
“Dating, parties, the prom, Ocean City this summer. Basically, a normal senior year. You have your whole life to run around the world doing Shakespeare, but senior year happens once. Now, as in Friday night. There’s a party at the barn. I want you to come.”
She looked at Kevin, suddenly stricken speechless. He flashed a perfect, dimpled smile, and a few strands of his bleached blond hair fell across his hazel-green eyes. He slid along the branch closer to where she stood frozen at the window, until he was very, very close. The deafening thump of her quickened pulse drowned Kevin’s mumbling of some poorly quoted lines from scene eight. Without further warning, he was kissing her. Mocha tried to nose his way between them, going so far as a warning bark or two, but it was no use.
After the window was safely closed and Kevin had long since returned to solid ground, Christina lay on her bed in the darkness. She attempted to analyze what had gone so wrong. One moment, she was fully in control of herself, her future, and her lips. Seconds later, she had been reduced to a wad of silly putty, molding to Kevin’s every whim.
And why? Because all through her four years at Riverside High, she had been completely clear on the fact that Kevin and his friends were the ones who had all the fun. If it was worth doing, Kevin and his friends were in the center of it. Everyone else was not.
She had thought she was over that, that Kevin’s opinion of her life didn’t matter anymore. And it surprised her how scary it was to think that after all those years living on the sidelines of high school life, that now, with Kevin Witherspoon outside her bedroom window inviting her into the inner circle, she would actually choose the sidelines.
Even now, the thought of allowing Kevin to dictate the terms of her senior year, not to mention her life, seemed ridiculous. Honestly, her feelings about Kevin hadn’t changed at all over the course of the evening. She still had no interest in dating him. She still missed Mark. She still wanted to go to Africa. It’s just that somehow all that became lost during that stupid speech Kevin gave about the prom, and the barn, and missing out on all the best parts of her senior year.
Christina knew she was taxing Elle’s skill as a choreographer. No doubt, her training had failed to cover the particulars of working with someone who had absolutely no rhythm whatsoever.
Slender and lithe, the dancer wore her flame-red hair in a close-cropped style that framed her porcelain skin and large green eyes. A naturalist, Elle took frequent sips of sparkling mineral water from a little green bottle that reflected and intensified her eyes and provided a platform for her frequent health and wellness monologues.
Two hours into the blocking of Act I, Scene 9, cracks were forming in the artist’s Zen-like veneer. First, she began biting on the end of her pencil. Christina marveled that her clumsiness caused the choreographer to expose her system to the toxins and microbes slathered across and embedded within the pencil’s tooth-pocked surface.
Then, Elle neglected to issue a radiation advisory to Mr. Lopez when he went backstage to zap his lukewarm coffee in the microwave. Now, even her arrow-straight posture was compromised as she slumped over her clipboard and shook her head.
The session had fallen into a cycle: Elle would pencil in a rapid notation, frown, erase it, and then look up at the stage. “Christina, honey, can you try this for me?” Then she’d demonstrate some sort of complicated footwork that Christina would fumble instantly. Back to the pencil biting.
To Christina’s horror, Kevin crossed the stage and crouched near the edge, in front of Elle. “How about this?” He nodded toward the clipboard, which she willingly handed over. “Why not work the situation to our advantage? Christina’s character has probably never been on the dance floor in her life—so it stands to reason that she wouldn’t know how to dance.”
“That’s where I come in—I’m supposed to be taking her out for a night on the town. We’ll enter from stage left. I’ll have her by the hand and gesture toward the dance floor like this—” Kevin extended a hand theatrically toward the stage behind him. “But she kind of says no, so I show her a few steps.” Kevin shuffled his feet in demonstration. “But she’s shy, so I just sort of sweep her off her feet, twirl her around, I’ll really play it up. All she has to do is make a few graceful arm movements when I set her down. That’s kind of the point of the whole scene, isn’t it—I sweep her off her feet?”
Elle nodded, smiling at Mr. Lopez. Christina searched his face for any sign of disagreement, but seeing none, she felt certain that he was now feeling guilty for asking Elle to rewrite the scene anyway. “That’ll work, don’t you think, Ed?”
“Yes, I think the scene will play out nicely like that.” He turned to Kevin. “Good work.” His tone clearly sent the message that he was impressed.
Christina was furious. Yes, it was true; her character, the poor Sarah Brown was scripted to fall under the spell of Kevin’s character. But the way the scene was written, she was really supposed to cut loose—pick up all the steps like a natural, and dance circles around him. Now she’d have to be tossed about like his plaything.
Who did Kevin really think he was, anyway, coming in off the football field and stealing the show? And, didn’t Elle’s purist ideas extend to her art as well? How could she just change the scene with one swipe of her gnawed pencil? She choked back tears of frustration that threatened to multiply the embarrassment factor.
Kevin popped open a can of soda. Elle’s head whipped around. “Have you seen what happens to a slice of bologna when it’s left in a glass of soda for 20 minutes?”
Kevin’s eyebrows soared as his shoulders rose.
“It disappears,” she said. “Now, do your stomach lining a favor and get back to work.” Elle straightened her spine and took the pencil from her lips, pointing people back into position. “We have time to go through the scene once—we won’t stop this time.”
Christina’s heart sank. Not stopping meant making it to the end of the dance scene and that meant kissing Kevin. She cringed her way through the lifting and twirling, not realizing how the scene looked to the outside world until she heard Elle over the music: “Smile! And open your eyes, please, you look like you’re sucking on a lemon!”
Great. Now Kevin was affecting her performance. She reminded herself that she had to pretend to love being tossed around by Kevin. She beamed—first at the audience and then at Kevin, who responded with the same boyish grin that had turned her to mush at her bedroom window.
The music swelled as he pulled her toward him and kissed her. To her dismay, she felt the same rush she had the night before. He was charming, cute, and irresistible. He was just too good at this type of thing. Mr. Lopez was already making some closing remarks, and Kevin still hadn’t released her from his embrace. “I’ll pick you up after your practice tomorrow,” he whispered in her ear. He gave her arm a squeeze before picking his backpack up from behind the curtain at stage left and swinging it over his shoulder. He winked and disappeared out the side door of the auditorium.
Christina felt nervous sitting in the passenger seat of the brand new Mustang Kevin was driving. His dad owned a chain of dealerships and it was well known that employment and driving a cool car were perks of friendship with Kevin Witherspoon.
“It’s all advertising,” Kevin was explaining, as he tapped out the beat to the song he had cranked on the car’s state of the art stereo system. “We drive the cars, people know where they come from, dad writes it off on his taxes.” Kevin shrugged, as though driving late model sports cars and doling them out to your friends like bubble gum was pretty common.
She nodded, having no idea what other response she could possibly offer. Her nervousness was party-related, and no amount of chatting about the car would be able to distract her for long. Barn parties were legendary. Not only had she never been to one, but none of the people she talked to on a routine basis ever had, either. Barn parties were the exclusive domain of beautiful, athletic, popular people. People who not only got away with breaking the rules, but were actually admired for it.
She wished she could take more comfort in the fact that Stacey would be there. At camp, Stacey’s fun-loving flirtatiousness had been an innocent personality quirk. Since her arrival in Riverside, Christina was beginning to see another, wilder side to her—a side she hoped would fade as she became more comfortable in her new surroundings.
Now, going over the last crest of the unpaved hill they’d been climbing for the past fifteen minutes, Christina could have easily believed that they were pulling into one of the Witherspoon’s dealerships. Shiny sports cars and beat-up hooptys alike were parked haphazardly across the field in front of the large barn. She could actually feel the beat of the music pumping inside the barn’s wide, weathered boards.
Still dressed all in black from play rehearsal, she was tempted to slip into the darkness, but instead she let Kevin grab her by the arm and lead her toward the barn.
“Who owns this place?” she asked nervously.
“This old guy,” Kevin said, vaguely, pausing to see if she would press for more information. She continued looking at him, finally turning a palm upward and raising her eyebrows. “He’s part owner at Rocko’s.” Kevin shifted his weight nervously. “He remembers what it was like to be young,” he said, simply. He turned to her, wrinkling his face. “Are you always this uptight?”
She shrugged, and Kevin gave her a playful punch on the shoulder. “Relax,” he said, grinning.
Inside, string lights dangled from the rafters and black lights glowed from the ceiling fixtures. Stray limbs jutted awkwardly from a large stack of hay in the loft, and she had to dodge bits of straw that were raining steadily downward.
Stacey waved to Christina from her seat on a hay bale on the opposite side of the barn. Something Dave was saying had her laughing hysterically and loudly—too loudly, Christina thought. Stacey grabbed a beer from Dave’s hand and threw her head back, downing nearly a quarter of the bottle.
Christina looked at Kevin. “I’m going to talk to Stacey.”
“OK, I’ll be right over.” Kevin cocked his head toward Rick, indicating that he wanted to talk to him first.
Christina worked her way through the sea of people dancing across the barn floor. She walked past huge speakers pumping out the hip hop beat that vibrated through her entire body, ducking to avoid the cigarette a cheerleader waved wildly through the air as she punctuated a story she told to a captivated audience of squad members.
“Oh, I’m sorry,” she said, eyes wide as she covered her mouth.
“It’s OK,” Christina said, even as she pondered the stupidity of smoking while standing on dry straw.
“Isn’t this awesome?” Stacey asked as she grabbed Christina by the arm. Her eyes were sparkling and she looked as though she were having the time of her life.
“What did you ride here in?” Stacey giggled, taking another sip of her beer.
“The red Mustang.”
“Dave has the yellow convertible, and we had the top down the whole way,” Stacey gushed.
“Wasn’t it cold?”
Stacey laughed again. “We had plenty to keep us warm.”
“What do you mean?” Christina demanded.
“Oh, blankets and stuff,” Stacey said. “Want some?” she asked, raising the bottle.
“No,” Christina said, “and you’d better be thinking about how you’re going to get home!”
Stacey laughed again. “That’s so sweet,” she said. Shoving the bottle back into Dave’s hand, she got up and put both hands over her head, moving to the beat as she slid out to the floor to dance. “Come on, Christina, have some fun!” She tilted her head toward their dancing classmates. “Come with me!”
“Stacey, you didn’t answer me!” Christina called after her. “How are you getting—” Her words drowned under the music. Stacey shook her head at Christina and then tossed it in the air as she danced.
Christina started after her, but Dave held out a hand to stop her. “It’s OK, Christina,” he said.
“No, it’s—”
Dave shook his head. “I haven’t had a thing to drink,” he said, holding his bottle in the air and pointing to indicate the fluid level. It was about two thirds empty, and Christina had watched Stacey drink it. “I’ll make sure she gets home,” Dave promised.
She eyed him warily. “A lot has changed since you asked me to the prom last year,” she said simply. “I don’t even know who you are anymore.”
“Not that much has changed,” Dave said. “Not as much as you think, anyway.” His eyes darted toward the floor, and for just a second she caught a glimpse of Bernard. “It’s easy to get caught up in all this. Don’t you think?” He looked her square in the eyes.
Ouch, Christina thought. “Not as much as you think,” she said.
“I’ll take Stacey home,” Dave said, abandoning the bottle in front of a stall.
Christina suddenly felt extremely hot, and searched for the source of the only fresh air she could feel. A small door behind the speakers was cracked open, and she headed toward it, welcoming the chance to cool off and escape the intermingled scents of alcohol, sweat, and smoke.
She glanced around for a place to escape for a few seconds of quiet. To her left, she saw a long wooden trailer hitched to a tractor and she headed for it. Reaching up, she grabbed onto one of the sides and hoisted herself up into the trailer and sank back into a haystack.
She took a deep breath, impulsively grabbing an armful of hay, inhaling the aroma. It was a cozy smell that reminded her of hot chocolate, caramel apples, and jumping into huge piles of leaves. She laughed out loud, stretched out her arms, and fell backwards into the mountain of hay. She sank heavily into the brittle straw, landing on something that wasn’t soft and prickly, but hard, solid, and…moving.
“Beat it, already, will ya!” An angry male voice called from the depths of the heap. “This hayride is full!” A female giggle came from even greater depths.
Christina’s face burned in embarrassment. “Sorry,” she stammered, as she began pulling herself up.
“Who are you talking to?” Kevin’s face popped up into the trailer.
“Well, I, um,” she began.
“Oh, forget it!” The voice came from below, and Christina felt the mountain beneath her shift and shrink. A guy from Bio class eventually emerged, his hair and pieces of straw protruding wildly from his head. He bent over, extending his hand as the haystack continued to shift and crackle.
Christina dropped another several inches as a girl she didn’t recognize emerged from beneath. Her long hair was tangled and most of her clothes were inside out. She rolled her eyes at Christina as Bio Guy grabbed her hand and they quickly jumped off the trailer.
Kevin hopped up beside Christina. “How about a cold one?” he asked, laughing, as he popped the cap off one of the two bottles he carried.
“No, thanks,” she shook her head. Kevin shrugged, lifting the bottle to his lips.
“And you shouldn’t have one either, if you expect me to go home with you,” she quickly added.
Kevin sputtered and coughed, spewing beer on his jeans. “You’re not kidding, are you?” he asked dismally.
“Not even slightly.”
“Well, uh, OK.” Kevin seemed genuinely baffled, but he set both bottles of beer on the bumper, put his hands behind his head, and settled into the haystack beside her. “This isn’t your scene, is it?” he asked.
“No, I guess it isn’t.”
“We’ve got good music, plenty of beer, good company.” He glanced meaningfully at her. “What’s the problem?”
“I don’t know, Kevin,” she said, turning her face from the night sky to look at him. “I don’t think I really knew much about myself or what I wanted out of life until recently.”
“What do you mean?”
“I used to think that I had to be popular to get the most out of life. Now I know that being popular just means doing what everyone else is doing. That’s definitely not what I want, Kevin.” She paused, looking for some indication that Kevin understood, but finding none, she continued. “The other night, for instance. You were talking about how I shouldn’t throw away my senior year. In your mind, that’s what I’m doing if I’m not partying. Did you ever consider that maybe you’re the one who’s missing out?”
He looked utterly baffled. “You’ve lost me somewhere.”
She smiled. “I know.” She looked back up at the stars and didn’t say anything for a long time.
He seemed frustrated. The silence, the beer embargo, and the abundance of deep thoughts had left him with little to offer the situation. He cautiously slid his hand across the hay and touched her hair. “I like the way it shines in the moonlight,” he said, flashing his best smile and leaning in toward her.
This time, Kevin had not only failed to charm her, he downright amused her. Instead of kissing him, she laughed out loud.
Kevin seemed stunned for a moment, but recovered quickly.
“OK, I guess that did sound like a line,” he said, retreating back into the haystack. He attempted to play the whole thing off with a grin, but he was obviously shaken. “Tonight’s just not happening for us, is it?”
“I don’t think so,” she said. “Would you mind taking me home?”
“Christina—” Kevin stretched his hand in front of her, gently stopping her from pushing the car door open. “I haven’t been doing a great job at this, but I want you to know that I really do like you. Maybe, I don’t know, can we do something together that you’d like sometime?”
“Maybe.” She flashed him a smile as she pushed the door open and stepped out.