Preface

For me it was a painful event in my life that gave cause to learn the "why did this happen" answer. I'm like all of us who feel mental or physical pain; we must know why. It is only natural for the normal and maybe not so normal folks.

My journey for all the answers would take my on a long wonderful trip to many different places and I was about to meet so many very nice and concerned people in my quest. I received such great and helpful counseling from so many of all ages, sex and ethnicity. I also reflect on many earlier parts of my life to find the missing pieces to solve the puzzle. We have all heard that almost all of the answers to whatever problem we have can be traced to some event or the lack of an event in our past. I believe that is true.

So what I have written about in this book is what I have learned and how I was able to overcome the pain in my life and how to continue living a long life without any unnecessary pain or stress. I also learned how to love myself and others and developed a strong faith in God. I learned the value of people, how to manage my decisions after I had made one and how I must be a better person on the inside than on the outside. The latter personal trait still eludes me but I will get it in time. Once learned you will never forget. My life truly changed.

I truly felt the most healing by writing this book which seems to have taken for ever. Believe me, I never thought I would ever write a book EVER!I hope those who take the time or feel the need to read it find it useful for curing whatever needs to be cured in their life. It is not a long book and I have tried to get to the chase.

Writing this book has been a long ordeal. It has been over three years of mostly part time efforts. I lost the entire book two times. Once was a disk error and the other was loosing my laptop that was located in the trunk of my old Chevy. The car was impounded from a campground in Virginia and before I could claim it is was sold for scrap. Scrap prices were sky high and everyone with a tow truck picked up whatever they could find - with or without authority from its owner.

But I was determined to finish so I started over and over. I believe the writing got better each time

Thanks for looking and considering.

Chapter 1

My life in retirement was a welcomed part of my existence. I had a wonderful family, a new fabulous home in a very rural area of New Jersey, excellent retirement income with all of the best benefits one could want. I had all the freedom that I was not used to in the past and plenty of time to do anything. I really didn’t know what to do with myself. My life in retirement was a welcomed part of my existence. I had a wonderful family, a new fabulous home in a very rural area of New Jersey, excellent retirement income with all of the best benefits one could want. I had all the freedom that I was not used to in the past and plenty of time to do anything. I really didn’t know what to do with myself.

Now at age 64, I sometimes think I’ve got most things figured out. You know like doing what I am supposed to do for myself and others, staying away from bad habits, vices and addictions, paying my debts to support my life style and that of my country, having a faith in a higher power and whatever else seems appropriate from what I have learned over time. Some wisdom has come my way after all. Of course, I do realize I don’t really have it all figured out by any means but at least I think I do and I get a worth and comfort having that thought.